A simple thought.
Are you happier before, or after?
Happiness counts.
Happiness should be what life is ultimately about.
I was, before.
Now...
Showing posts with label So where's my penny?. Show all posts
Showing posts with label So where's my penny?. Show all posts
Wednesday, June 30, 2010
Friday, June 18, 2010
Thursday, June 10, 2010
Penny for my thought #4
Assumption.
True, you never said you did not love me.
Yet, you did not say you did either.
At the most crucial of times, you chose not to reply.
Silence does not mean consent in such times.
True, you never said you did not love me.
Yet, you did not say you did either.
At the most crucial of times, you chose not to reply.
Silence does not mean consent in such times.
Monday, June 7, 2010
A penny for my thought #3
Death.
I used to be scared of dying, because I was afraid my ex would be devastated should anything happen to me, and plus I did not want the then-happiness to end soon, thus I took heed of ever doing dangerous stuffs.
Now, that fear is no where to be found anymore.
People may say, if you die, your family will be sad, etc. Yes they would be sad, I know, but we can never predict our departure.
If my time is up, it is. I would not fear it anymore.
Time to take risks and enjoy life while it lasts.
I used to be scared of dying, because I was afraid my ex would be devastated should anything happen to me, and plus I did not want the then-happiness to end soon, thus I took heed of ever doing dangerous stuffs.
Now, that fear is no where to be found anymore.
People may say, if you die, your family will be sad, etc. Yes they would be sad, I know, but we can never predict our departure.
If my time is up, it is. I would not fear it anymore.
Time to take risks and enjoy life while it lasts.
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
A penny for my thought #2
I sometimes am truly amused by how mess up my life is now. And now that I've read for awhile, I am able to put it in writing how it's like for me...
I love him, but yet I do not want to love him, because I know even if I love him he does not want to be with me, so what for still love him. But in love, you can't choose to suddenly just unlove someone, unless you really don't love him that much. So even if I know that I myself am able to still fight on for this relationship, I am not willing to, because he is not willing to.
I self-motivate (or delusionise if you want to put it negatively) myself whenever I feel weak. Weak in the sense where I start to miss him and start to yearn for his existence. I tell myself what I just typed above, and I would feel better. I talk like that to myself, in hopes that it would turn out to be true, in hopes that I would start truly believing that I can, and will, in the end, let him go.
Am still doing so.
Am I truly looking forward to the future? I fight that question mentally everyday.
I love him, but yet I do not want to love him, because I know even if I love him he does not want to be with me, so what for still love him. But in love, you can't choose to suddenly just unlove someone, unless you really don't love him that much. So even if I know that I myself am able to still fight on for this relationship, I am not willing to, because he is not willing to.
I self-motivate (or delusionise if you want to put it negatively) myself whenever I feel weak. Weak in the sense where I start to miss him and start to yearn for his existence. I tell myself what I just typed above, and I would feel better. I talk like that to myself, in hopes that it would turn out to be true, in hopes that I would start truly believing that I can, and will, in the end, let him go.
Am still doing so.
Am I truly looking forward to the future? I fight that question mentally everyday.
Monday, April 26, 2010
A penny for my thought
Sometimes, how I wished I were still together with him, because it would be much more fun doing all the things I know he would certainly like. Kind of spoils the mood when you feel like buying something so much, yet realise you no longer have that soulmate to share it with.
Worst still, you know he would 110% love it. So you kick yourself awake, put the temptation down, walk on and tell yourself to hope for a chance to buy it in future for someone lucky enough.
Tuesday, February 2, 2010
Do you remember the time, when we fell in love..
"My grades were ok, and I graduated. I met my current boyfriend, and he has been so understanding. Everytime I was sad, he would be there to wipe my tears away. He would always bring smiles onto my face, and make me laugh constantly. This relationship is the best of all my past ones, and I am really really appreciative of my fortune. Even though I seldom show it, I have decided to be commited to this guy for as long as he wants me to be."
- Sunday, June 12, 2005
"I have decided to be commited to this guy for as long as he wants me to be."
Believe it or not, I base my love on this throughout my relationship until this day.
Memories; bitter sweet feelings.
- Sunday, June 12, 2005
"I have decided to be commited to this guy for as long as he wants me to be."
Believe it or not, I base my love on this throughout my relationship until this day.
Memories; bitter sweet feelings.
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