Dreaming of my man?

These few days I've been dreaming about other guys- one of which I have never met before, and one of who fancies me but I do not feel the same way towards him.

Yesterday was a wierd one.

I dream I woke up, in the toilet, naked, in the arms of the (aboved mentioned) guy who likes me.

Yet in the dream, he was somewhat different. Different in the sense where I did not dislike him as much as I do in real life, but in the dream, I felt his gentleness and TLC. It seemed in the dream that he was (sad to say) not as bad as real life.

In it, I woke up and realised I was drunk, and somehow I must have insisted in my drunken state in bathing and he has no choice but to help me bathe. (Which has happened before with my ex anyway. I'm just a little more anal about bathing before I sleep, drunk or not.)

So when I got sober in the toilet, and found myself naked in the arms of that guy, I was shock at first.

Then I felt vulnerable- feelings that I often feel when I think back on my failed relationship.

I begun to cry, I felt so helpless.

Yet in his embrace, I felt so so comforted. The guy kept comforting me with his words, ensuring me that he would always be there beside me no matter what, and so forth.

And at that moment I could also trust him to not lust and take advantage of me. It seemed that he really loved me not to take advantage of me eventhough I had been stoned.

I really felt so loved, so fortunate.




Then I bloody had to wake up by a telephone call informing me that I had overslept for work.

Damn it.

I wish it were real.

I wish I could meet someone who could give me back the security and trust I had lost in man.

I wish.