How stereotypical.
Doesn't mean I like clubbing, that means my life is all about clubbing.
Doesn't mean I like going and hanging out, that means I hate to stay at home.
Doesn't mean I save less than some people, that means I don't save for my future.
Why is it that we always seem to be hurt by people's judgements.
Now I tell you, a out-going girl can also like staying home.
A clubber can also like a quiet stroll by the beach.
A person who save little may in fact be because alot of it goes into insurance investment.
It all depends on mood, doesn't it?
Cherish me? Are you sure you did?
Will you ever find someone who could love you so wholeheartedly.
6 years of 100% true loyal feelings, didn't that count as something?
3 years she loved you even with your constant low self-esteem, dismissing them and instead encouraging you all the way.
2 years she stuck with you during your army days, when other girlfriends could not.
1 year of crash and burn incidents, she still loved you as strongly as before with no change.
Even after experiencing double betrayal, she still held on.
Even after being labelled as a hindrance towards peace, she still held on.
Even after knowing that you didn't want to introduce her to your friends, she still held on.
And yet, now you said you just wanted to be JUST FRIENDS.
Please, don't count that girl in if you want to continue to be self-delusional.
Say all that you might in your friend theory, but I had always believe that we would go all the way till the end.
Even till grave.
Till death do us part; I was that ready since many years ago.
What did I end up with?
Forever Friends.
FML.
Still remember I ever told you of this phrase in a song I dedicated to you:
I love you, yes I do
I'll be with you as long as you want me to
Until (until) the end (the end) of time
Reread the second line.
My loyalty goes to that extent- as long as you want me to.
But as FRIENDS? You must be living in a world I can no longer exist in.
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Come to think of it, you giving all the reasons for the cause of our failure in the relationship is because you no longer believed in us, that I am no longer the girl you wanted to marry in the end.
If you'd loved and believed in someone so wholeheartedly, even if I'd matured and change overtime, you would still be here for me and stuck to the very end- just like what I had done for you all the way.
Call me dumb or stupid, but I now really believe that true love is sticking and believing in the other person eventhough that person has made mistakes or gone into prison. Which human don't err, tell me? As long as they are repentent, we should always give them a chance.
I had believed and always worked on improving things between us with determination and sincerity. I think you had gone the opposite into always focusing on our past and problems from the past till present.
Why can't you ever look forward to the future with determination of the end result?
Have you feared that hoping would give you false hopes in the end?
What did you think I faced when I dated Mike, then patched with you after? Didn't I too faced your family's repercussions with determined belief that all would die down after I prove to them that I was real with you?
Why do you let the possibility of facing such setbacks from mine affect your determination on our relationship? Is your pride and ego so much more important than having someone who truly loved you be your companion in this life?
What if I tell you that I'll never ever leave you unless you want me to, or upon death?
Would you believe me? (I think you and I know the answer would be NO.)
Because you've lost all hopes & beliefs in us.
~ I didn't want to have the chance to relate to "Michael Learns to Rock- 25 minutes", that's why I choose to leave to try to find someone who's determined to be more than just friends till the end. You looking me back after realisation would be something I will force all hope out from.
Im listening. Always here.
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